我真的累了。

School as usual , rebbie didnt came to school .

Went to school with Val&co. Lesson was so-so .

Keep on do things to make myself busy . Prevent myself

to start thinking again . Wht shld i do ? ):

Clement & hex abuse me during lesson . They keep on

beat me & push my head . I nearly fall . ):

Being abuse by them its a great things . Bcos i could

forget everything . Hais ): I felt so sick & tired .

After school , was raining . Walk-ed home with val

even thou it was raining heavily . Acc val wait for his

father to fetch him at the shelter . But , i stand in the

rain . Val say im mad . YES ! I'm really insane . ):

I want myself to get sick-ed ! Numb me , Numb me !

I was drenched of cos . Hais .

I've not eaten anything for 3days alr . Of cos ,

not all bcos i'm diet-ing . Its bcos i'm not hungry at all .

I felt so miserable ): Tell me why ? ):

I felt so miserable ! Did i did the wrong choice?

I hope miracles do happen , can't you show me the seriousness?

I thought i could have confident in you . but , what you

shows me? Didnt contact me , yoos dont care !

I hope , i wish , i crave , i yearn ! ):

You won't know how much i miss&worry . Yoos wouldn't knew.

I want myself to get sick-ed , i knew

this will help me to stopped thinking . I want to numb

my brain. Tell me , what should i do ?

Show me , if you're really serious . Dont make me goes mad.

Tell me , Are you serious ? Hais ):

God , pls numb my heart !